Free Me From Me
Day 25–27, The Me Project
We had holidays with family this weekend. I’m feeling gratitude about where my people are with their thems. There’s joy in places where not long ago there was only pain. There’s hope where there wasn’t; healing, peace, humor, wholeness.
Family time is often such a complicated bag. I am processing a lot of thoughts about why anxieties are provoked by time with family, and I’ll gently work through those later this week. (Don’t panic, all names will be changed to protect the innocent)
There was also unhealthy sleep, food (fucking sugar I can’t seem to stop), and no exercise or writing over the weekend. I need to get better at squirreling away for some me project me time, and drinking water no matter where I am or what I’m up to. I DID do karaoke and hang out in a bar for 5 hours, and go to SEVERAL family parties without drinking booze, so that’s a feat. I think drinking wasn’t helping with my anxiety as much as I wanted it to be.
Also, I’m considering doing a cleanse or fast with both food/drink, but also my phone. Not coming off of social media, bc I’m using that to run a few businesses, but more like limiting my communications time to computer-only, and, like twice daily, instead of ignoring the people around me and scrolly scrolling through the same mindless shit on my phone on repeat hour-after-hour, day-after-day.
As far as the fast go- we’ve done juice/water/broth fasts in the past. I recently heard about the kitchari fast and am considering that. Anyone with any experience? I’m not looking to lose weight in a Hollywood starlet sort of way (no holes in my colon from wacked out “tea,” please), and weight loss isn’t the objective, although re-setting my satiety/hunger triggers sounds pretty great.
Anyway….we’re home with relaxation and purging stuff from the house plans, so I’ll be writing more. Soon.
